When you are so use of heartache you become immune to let downs. You are no longer surprised when something you hope for falls through. Nothing seems to promising so you move through your relationships as if it can be over any day. Building no real connections with your partners only because you know in the back of your mind it's only temporary. We build serious insecurities about ourselves because of past relationship failures. You start to think you're not pretty, sexy, and smart enough to keep someone in your life. So you don't put in an efford to build something great you hold back only giving him what you think he wants and not what you know he needs. You're never happy with your partner because you are never really being yourself playing a role like its a play until the show is over. That's why we call it "The Game". A cycle that will always be relevant because our generation is too cool to be soft and too strong to be weak for love.
My Confession
I am her the girl who's been let down so many times until it's made me numb. I am her that girl who's afraid to open up her heart to love again because I always end up hurt and disappointed. I am her the girl who blocks out any form of affection from my partners because I'm scared my heart will be broken again for the thousandth time so I've built up so many walls to now it feels impossible to knock them down. I am her that insure girl who doesn't think she deserves that Prince Charming who comes and swipes her off her feet. I am her and I am you but would I want be for long is that girl who misses out on what I want because I'm still living off my past failures. For once I'm going to stick with something I think is worth sticking with I rather go after it and say I tried than live my life wishing I did. We have to start seeing things as blessings when it fails sometimes just because it's good to you doesn't mean it's good for you. You count your losses with a gain of knowledge you get wiser and better prepared to deal with the one that's coming to stay in your life forever.
Life's Favorite Student,
Sherry 💌
