TRYING TO STAY HUMBLE

As I feel myself slowly drifting away from my humble being I'm trying to stay grounded. My upbringing wasn't me living in nice house driving nice cars going to nice restaurants and traveling all over the world. I didn't have the best of clothes and the cutest face I was the ugly duckling with the big feet and the short hair with the big teeth. I never got a chance to date the hottest boy in my class or the most poplar boy in school. I always had the leftovers the nobodies "Wannabes" the guy who had the same problems as me so we kind of settle for each other in a sense. I use to hope I had a date to a dance or to just be invited to one I always just wanted to be accepted. I was told that I would never amount to nothing but just a hoodrat. But I proved them wrong after went through a real life changing experience at 21yrs of age my whole outlook has changed on life. I pulled myself together gave my life to god a girl who once hated going to church was there front row praising him for opening my eyes to what I was blind to seeing for along time. I got a change to network and meet some elite people in Monroe La, landed a great job being a mortgage banker and was able to provide greatly for my kids and family. Although I stayed humble for a while and always thankful I started to get comfortable. I stop recognizing my blessings and started acting like this was owed to me I stop putting in the work that got me where I am now. I feel myself getting big headed and very vague I wanted this so bad to be able to just be somebody and now that I am I'm turning out to be the same person I didn't like in high school and college. Money changes us rather it's for the good or bad although I'm not rich and not where I wanna to be yet but I am in a great place financially. I'm just trying to get it back mentally. Since I started going backwards my bad luck is coming back I'm starting to lose things physically and I can't seem to pull it back together. I hate that I judge people that I was once like and started looking down on the ones who started with me. I feel horrible that I let myself get to that point. I'm recognizing my wrongs and trying to make them right I would love to be forgiven by those I hurt along the way because I didn't mean to make them feel that wasn't in my caliber and wasn't good enough to eat at my table. From this day forward I won't let my success ruin my relationships with my friends or family. I want to share my most greatest moments with them the people who has my back and love me the most.